Confidence has never been something I've struggled with. In fact, in most cases, confidence is something I've always had an abundance of. Not to say there haven't been times in my life where I have been insecure about something or felt as if something I have done isn't the best it could be, I just never had an issue with confidence. That is until this morning.

Lately I've really been pushing myself to become a better poet. I've been striving to write lyrics that I will read afterwards and know that they are good. I've been drawing inspiration from amazing writers as well, like Conor Oberst and Ace Enders. Maybe that's the reason I'm in the predicament I'm in, or maybe it's because little do I know, I have a little bit of a confidence problem. I want so badly to be able to write well; Not just songs, but I want to be able to write things that make you feel something. I've always been amazed by people who can write a simple piece of literature (??) and simply in the way they put their words together they make you feel something. It's like they can capture the feeling you feel when you see an amazing mountain range, or really realize the vastness of the ocean, and direct it at you about anything. Joel Klettke has always been amazing at this. What's the key? I want to be able to write like that.

So, last night I wrote some lyrics, I spent a long time working on them, because I wanted them to be perfect. I wanted to be so proud of what I'd written when I was done, and I recall that when I put the paper down I was content. I was proud of what I'd done.

However this morning when I woke up, and up until now, I have not had the guts to look at the page. I'm too afraid to look at my words because I have such little confidence in myself when it comes to writing that I have somehow convinced myself I will be let down.

This is where my confidence issue begins, and I think the only way to get out of it is to become a better writer, a better poet. I plan to do that.